Keep the Earth Below My Feet

Today started off really great.

Gram came to visit and Michael came to do respite with Andrew. Both of the boys had a fabulous day with great moods all around.

Gram and I usually check in with each other before bed, but she called me a lot earlier than usual today. She called to tell me that my mother called her. As her and I were talking on her cellphone, my mother called her on her landline again. I heard her say some pretty awful things to my Gram, but she held her composure really well.

I truly don't understand how someone so heinous came out of someone so incredible. My Gram is an angel on this planet. I just don't get it. I'm beyond grateful she and I have been able to repair and create the relationship we have now after all of the years we spent apart. 

I've had a pit of anxiety in my stomach since I heard my mother's voice. I just wish she'd leave every one of us alone. It's like she can't handle peace and no chaos. I hate that she still has the power to bring out any reaction in me at all. Someday.

Anyhoo. Even though that put a damper on the day, I'm still really, really looking forward to the concert tomorrow. 

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Sue O said…
That sucks. I’m sorry. Thinking of you and praying for peace for your heart.
August 5, 2023 at 7:36 PM
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